Distance cast the longest shadow
Apologies in advance, I have no mood to be honest to post an update, but the show must go on. On saturday, I received the news that my aunt, had passed away. This was the aunt that used to take care of me when I was young when my parents were busy working. I spent many happy years at her home as a kid. I haven’t been home since 2018. Last year, my grandmother passed away (old age, not covid, she was near 100) For me, I didn’t felt an immense loss because I accepted that it was time for her to go because she had been in vegetative state for so long. As sad as I was, I was glad she was finally able to have release from the jail that was her body. The only really depressing part was because of covid, not to mention I was in another country meant I missed the last goodbyes.
What hit me hard this time was because of how heartbreaking and frustrating it is. My aunt had acute leukemia. (how?) Acute’s the word. She was diagnosed in August and passed away not even two months later. As part of her last will, she insisted that besides her immediate family, no one should know about her hospitalisation. She wanted to go without seeing the rest of the family and relatives because she didn’t want us to be sad for her nor see us sad for her. So, no one knows. The news just came out of the blue, everyone are still in a state of disbelief and shock. Shocked not just cause the news, shocked because she’s the sunniest, chattiest, healthiest person we knew and this happened. It’s even more terrifying because some are now suspecting could it be “maybe” the vaccine triggers the underlying illness since the timing was just right. The symptoms appearing not long after she completed her vaccine. And so, because of covid, funerals have to be quick and small. I can’t even go back and even if I do, i still need to go through quarantine. I feel terribly heartbroken.
Sorry.